Being in your 30’s

Good morning. First of all I am single I don’t have any children.Never been married. I am currently thinking about carers goals. Most of my friends are in relationships and have children. I’m also looking to make more friends people who are creative in life and energetic also that don’t have children. I just think we would have more in common. It’s actually kind of hard in Namibia. They are still old school. I’d also like to date a guy that don’t want any children and doesn’t have any children. Most of they day I am bored. I live with my mother because I have been misdiagnosed. Not because I don’t have no motivation in life. In my previous blogs I wrote about it. It was a heavy setback. I lost everything because of this. Filed me bankruptcy. But I’m not giving up. Maybe there is a chance to get financial compensation out of this. Then I can start over. That’s my no 1 goal for now. Also I know more of what I want in life. Dye my hair metallic pink the first time something very different. Get a nose piercing. Get more tattoos to cover stuff. In my twenties I just wasted allot of money on partying. So in my 30s I’ll invest the money in me. Change my identity to my authentic true self. Maybe do a course in something. I’m also into Tarot cards. Get me a pack of those. You know just chill and work on becoming my true authentic self

My relationships with my parents..well they made me always feel like I’m the bad guy..they also have their mistakes. I remember when I used to be an exotic dancer at Mavericks Cape Town. This one girl told me..well fuck them you are here now…..well back then I thought that was wrong. Today I agree with her..