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Fear or Depression

So I just texted my friend. I started to blog. She told me to journal. I decided no to that. My reasons are simple. I want to share my experiences with people all over the world and I feel that some people are to scared to share their thoughts,feelings without being judged. Why should you keep a journal and be kept in the dark. There are allot of people out there that may feel the same as you do. I don’t have it easy in life. Lost allot of motivation and blogging helps me. I feel as a woman you need to speak up. How many woman are in a abusive relationship right now.Afraid to speak up. I was in one. Took me 8 years to be done with him. I was young also. Also I come from a broken home. I’m trying healthy coping mechanism such as blogging. I encourage woman to do the same

Why live in fear? Why are woman scared. Start to feel empowered again. Write about your experiences. What did you do to get out of the abuse. Fear of being judged? Depressed not talking about it. Still scared of your abusive ex? I am for one. I have a child with him. But he lives with his Aunt. So no contact is good. Still feels like he planned it. I am depressed, I don’t have any fear. I feel empowered by sharing my life. What are you scared of?

Baking

February 05, 2023

Hi guys

So this is an update.

I couldn’t afford the Audi as to much stress was involved with not having my papers. At sun city I met this cute Indian guy. Gave me R800 in cash just to talk with him. He was cute. Told me how he waxed everything including his stomach. Ha. So we met in Johannesburg also after Sun city. Went for a few drinks. Told me to stop. He was not the first lol.

I decided I had enough of it. A break is also good. I was also burned out. The hours can be brutal. I just really miss the people. I’m back in Namibia. It sucked lol.

Still in Namibia with depression but trying to cope.

Cape town is very sleepy. Not my kinda place. Slaapstad.

I miss the energetic vibes. The buzz.

Coco cola

Hi

So has everyone ever stripped before.

I have and it has been a great confidence boost and to get out of your comfort zone.

Of course girls can be mean. But I didn’t care. It was hard the first club scammed me out of allot of money. I did not do my research well and was eager to start a new life. To my younger self. Typical. New life new start stubborn as hell. Overstayed my stay in South Africa. Moved to two new Clubs. Johannesburg was my favorite. Real people. Made nice money. Met nice people. So I remember sitting one work night on the couch and got like a wake up call. Wtf am I doing. I’m lying saying I’m south African which I am but my paperwork is so screwed up. And that’s when it hit me. I don’t want to be stuck here I want to travel have options.

I remember Jerry, she was one of the managers at Rivonia and told me that I can’t be on the floor without identification. Fuck,! I thought. I just sat and thinking I’m screwed. But she put me on the floor nonetheless. I filled in some paperwork and remember telling her I want an Audi. She told me I need to make allot of money for an Audi.

Troubleshooting

So how do women feel being forced into a car.Manager of Naankuse

Andries Liebenberg forced me into a car.Acting aggressive saying I’m a danger to other people. How would you feel without no back up. This is Namibia. I wanted to drive the shuttle. He declined. So I thought I was going to get raped and he is going to kill me. He also controlled my life. And today I must just be cool with it.

I’ll never forget when I got into the Land cruiser. It was like my life flashed before my eyes. Also which scared me more was the fact that he didn’t say a word. Didn’t speak just kept looking behind him. I was so extremely scared. So I decided to make a few stops. First for a cool drink. To check for another lift. Nothing. Then in malthohoe finally I was free . My ride was with a police woman. Felt much safer. Arrived in Windhoek .

Did not say much to anybody at the time.As a woman who would believe you.

I want to empower woman’s right at work places.

Drama

Hi 😊
So I have been struggling with my weight. I hate sugar,candy etc.
I’m 54kg I want to be at least 47kg.
I’m depressed and Drama has hit my life.
I used to smoke weed everyday from a young age.
Dropped out of high school.
Became pregnant as I wasn’t sexual educated.
For me this day it still feels like I was trapped.
The guy was much older than me.
And I wasn’t ready. 
I struggle to fit in Namibia.
SA not a problem.
I worked my way up to Assistant Manager.
I tried everything always being positive.
Reading motivational quotes.
Now I’m back to square one.
I have been wrongly misdiagnosed.
Going to sue for malpractice.
Lost everything. Everyday is just hard.
That’s why I started blogging. Meeting new people maybe that share some of my experiences. I hate working for a boss after naankuse. I am trying to blog get good traffic. Maybe write my own book. Shall see.